Luke 6:38 — You can’t give too much from purpose
In this period of incongruency between so many commitments I have made, it was helpful to recenter and reflect on my life with family over the Holidays in Kansas.
I'm increasingly recognizing that I'm going completely off-script/out of the box to give my all to unifying all the disparate commitments
My relationship with my girlfriend in Thailand,
Building out a podcast and coaching course,
While completing my masters degree
And teaching in San Francisco.
It’s Hard To Know If What I’m Doing Will Work Out.
It’s hard to know if what I’m doing will work out. I've certainly never done this before. Some of my 2019 goals are to get engaged and married, have the passive income to move to Thailand and never work for someone again, and launch a full fledged 90 day course to propel people onto their path of purpose.
My dream is to be free of needing to limit my life to one physical location, an instrumental part of a wonderful purposeful community, and being a family man.
It’s easy to have fear, uncertainty, and doubt going outside of the box to live a life authentic to my truest desires. I could let the lack of clarity prevent me from taking the next steps of commitment and investment forward.
A Word and A Story Can Make A Difference
When I visited Kansas over my winter break from school I got to meet with a wonderful Christian family I had met in a miraculous way in San Francisco. They gave me a verse and a story which really hit home for my situation.
Psalms 119:105 says - “Your word is like a lamp that shows me the way. It is like a light that guides me.” Even though I don't have a clear vision on the distant or even not so distant future I do have everything I need to assess where I am now and where I will step next.
They told me a story about Civil War General Stonewall Jackson. When his Captain asked him how he stays so calm in the face of the chaos and dangers of war he replied, "Captain, my religious belief teaches me to feel as safe in battle as in bed. God has fixed the time for my death. I do not concern myself about that, but to be always ready, no matter when it may overtake me. Captain, that is the way all men should live, and then all would be equally brave."
I hope that this quote helps you get past your fears to move forward through faith and purpose even if you are taking a step just beyond the light of your lamp. There are times where this is the only way to move. I'm sure that soon you will build momentum as you move towards your greatest desires.
The first move is certainly not without risk, but the greater risk is the paralysis that comes if you stay still.
I wish you the best of luck in your first steps in 2019.